Saturday, July 28, 2012

To Let Go and Move On

Holding on is being brave, 
but letting go and moving on is often what makes us stronger. (Ano)

Truly true. She once thought that she wouldn't give up on something she could go a day without thinking about... She promised to herself that she will fight for it no matter what. She wanted all over the world to know her, struggling against everything, to get it back. 
Those were hardest days. She tried to fake a smile. Every line she sent always ended with ":)" or "<=-p" (on one of famous messenger) which actually not. It should be like these: ":(", ":'(", or emotionally ">:O". She's been tired of pretending. It (ridiculously) hurt. It shed lots of bitter tears. It was not easy. It had never been. :)

She's been patient long enough. Harder than he knows. Not to be appreciated, been rejected... She smiled. What else he has to do to punish her? 

But she is now fully awake. Finally. :)

If he wants to leave, just let him go. Don't cry over his "departure", but smile for every memory he had left. Never believe in any reason, because if he loves her, he will make an effort to stay. :)

She can see clearly that he didn't do anything to change the situation, he didn't try at all, he even cheated on her. (!!) If he means it, she knows he will take a little step. But in fact, he didn't. She might have reached the limit of patience. Been enough to be treated like this. Been lowering her pride (A girl should be chased, not chasing!) only to make him feel her presence.

After all, she concludes that he's not worth waiting. :)

She has to let go. She doesn't want to drown in this sea of sadness. It's beyond pathetic and it wastes time. She has to move forward. She really would not like to wait for a guy who didn't make any try. It is not about letting everything flow. Your life has been written by the Almighty... But if you really want something, you will fight for it, true? You will struggle to, right? You don't keep sitting there and waiting for everything happens as it flow. Who's with me? :)

This post might be only an expression of disappointment. A deep, deep disappointment. 
I emotionally wrote this, so if this hurts anybody's feeling, I really want to apologize from the deepest part of my heart. Really, I didn't mean to. Life is about forgiving, isn't it? :)

If happy ever after did exist, I would still be holding you like this.... No, Mr. Levine, a happy ending does exist. If it's not ended happily, you've still not reached the ending yet. I am the one to blame if your fairytale doesn't have happy ending. ;)

Ikhlas? Insya Allah. :)

Dear you, she loves you like no other. :)
It will always be like that. Always.

NB: Inspired by someone's love story that's really not simple. A relationship is not only about to love, but also to forgive and forget. I dedicate this post to all broken hearted girls. You better let go and move on! Because there's someone somewhere out there waiting for you to come! Be brave and be strong! :)

By the way, I'd found this when I wanted to examine fetal heart beat of one patient this morning. 
I curiously asked a mummy-soon-to-be, "Are you fan of this football club, Mam?"
Then she answered with a smile, "Not me. My husband is."
"He lends me his phone, which has been added with songs of Mozart that I can listen to everytime (to stimulate baby's brain development). He also said that he put this sticker to remind me of him (he's a big fan of AC Milan), so I will always remember him as he is beside me right now."

Monday, July 23, 2012


Friend : Hey.. Are you okay?
Me : Do I look not okay?
Friend : Because your lipgloss, lipstick whatsoever.. just can not hide how pale you are.

I thank God for everyone in my life. :)

Sunday, July 22, 2012

I won't

"And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay
And make the difference that I can make

I won't give up on us
God knows I'm tough enough
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

I won't give up.."

Jason Mraz - I won't give up

Friday, July 20, 2012


Tim Hore just had a superb-fun photoshoot on rooftop of GDC (Gedung Diagnostic Centre), RSU Dr. Soetomo Surabaya... Actually this place is where an air ambulance lands in a.k.a Helipad!
That's why I tittled this post HOREPAD: Hore at Helipad. Enjoy!

We also had chance to take photos with exchange students. Glad we made a cute picture together. :)

Among the great photos... The winner of best photo goes to..... *drumrolls*


Friday, July 13, 2012

All Time Fave

Adrian Martadinata - Kuingin Kau Tahu

Time to move another step forward! Yooooooooosh!

Thank you!

Last July 4th, I celebrated my birthday. Thank you my bestfriends for taking part in celebrating! :)

So after one sleepless night (hahaha silly galauness!!), accompanied by my dear Olivia through the phone,
I came to school with uncomfortable and painful swollen eyes, fighting heavy drowsiness.
Been trying to reduce these puffy eyes by cold compress! It helped yet some of groupmates somehow realized it and said: "Today is yours. Go enjoy it!"
Hahaha, of course I will, mate! Thank you for reminding me! :')

That day, on may way to Department's Office, they suddenly came out and surprised me bringing this cake.

This little surprise made my day! :) :)

From them I got this cute teddy bear! Can't thank you enough! :)

As feedback to little surprise, I asked them for lunch! I really miss Hore's quality time!

And went to karaoke session!

As I grow older, I learned lots in my life. I gained many advices. I also made uncountable mistakes.
But these are all I need to grow up, to be more mature.
I smiled, I laughed, I cried and I enjoyed every pieces.
I analyzed and I concluded everything from my point of view.
I thank Allah for ones who have became and who will always be part of my life.
They helped me to reach a step closer to the top, (I might be only on half way point of my life now!),
so I really want to use my birthday wishes for their health, prosperity and everlasting happiness,
to everyone who has helped me go further on my path,
to everyone who has been a reason for me to smile and to cry.
I owe you a priceless lesson. :)
Thank you everyone for the most remember-able and memorable birthday gift.
Thank you for the birthday wishes also! :)

Sunday, July 8, 2012

What To Do

Head up, Wipe Tears Away, Smile, Stay Strong and Be Unbeatable. :)

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Chasing The Idol

Today morning, I and my best buddy Sari, went chasing a famous ophtalmologist to Majapahit Hotel.
It turned out to be an extraordinary Saturday morning. :)

Knowing that the doctor, dr. Ferdiriva Hamzah, Sp.M, coming to town attending Meeting of Indonesian Opthalmologist Association, I bravely tweeted him:
Doc, if you still stay in Surabaya, would you mind if I ask for you signing my books? Thank you :D
And he replieeeed! So this is how my (one of) fave writer chasing journey begins. :)

We were waiting for him sitting in the hotel lobby and observing around, to look for a man who has the similarity to dr. Ferdiriva by analyzing his twitter display picture. Hahaha!
Doc, please, you should change your display picture with self portrait, taken with the front facing camera,
so your fans will easily recognize you! ;D

Oiya, dr. Ferdiriva is very humble and extremely friendly! He even greeted us first! :)

Try reading his books! :)


He signed my books, and wrote this also:

"Dear Titis, Semoga Cepat Jadi Dokter yang Sukses!"
(Dear Titis, be a successful doctor very soon!)

Thank you dr. Riva and Sari, for saving my gloomy weekend. :)